yeah, i’m nearly the 80 percent mark finally. a lot of self help books and motivational speakers preach on the concept known as the 80/20 principle. it basically means that whenever you set out to achieve a goal, project, etc… the first 80% is all hard work with no payoff. you’re trudging uphill, spinning your wheels, fighting for traction. then something happens one day and you crest that hill. and it all gets easier. its all downhill from there. but most people quit when they’re on the 99 yard line about to score. me on the other hand, will do whatever it takes to carry a project to completion. i’m super busy, but very soon…

Buckle up and return your seats and tray tables to their original upright positions. I just got back from doing a few promo gigs out here in florida. They’re having the big daytona 500 race this week out here, speed week I think they call it… and this model agency hired me on to be a car show “rent a model” with some other model type skinny russian broads who barely speak any english. Russian girls are hot but they dont smile too much… anyhow you know how they want like a multicultural talent pool and all at these big corporate events, and since nascar is mostly a redneck sport and has a 0.02% negro audience I guess I got handpicked to be the black boy posterchild. Whatever nigga just cut the check for the right amount… so thats my day, and my week here actually. I’m hustling, ponying up some cash for my next video project so I can sell sell sell and get paid paid paid. Photo above is me and Ryu from Latindollars at Saphirre at the 2010 players ball. Thanks for the bottle service WebAir and D-money the free Limo service and VIP was much appreciated man!

So getting back to florida here and now, its like 2am and after a long 12 hour workday of being a rent-a-coon I fell asleep, just woke up and checked my email. I got something from my mom, a Fwd’d msg actually from my ex who asked for some dollars a few days ago. Something along the lines of “send money now” and we got a 500 dollar phone bill lol. Quit calling niggas in jail and out of your area code and country then. Use skype like every other motherfucker does in this recession, its free. I then read a little deeper cause my eyes are tired, and its 2am and theres something in the email about how I’m fucking some bitches, doing this and that to some indians, i’m a disgusting horrible person, pervert, etc, etc. I still didnt read all that shit in its entirely, cause its 2am, I’m thirsty, and I need to get ready to hit the gym for my workout before cranking out some computer work.

In my opinion if you have internet access, a home with 4 walls, with functional utilities, and a fixed monthly income you are not as bad off as you think. Go figure it out, and if this bitch thinks I care if my family knows that I make adult films for a living she’s got another thing coming.  Its just entertainment for profit, and I promote smiles. I recorded a Shimmy Show broadcast about this as I’m making my smoothie right now. And it was a really good strawberry banana smoothie, all frothy on top just like I like it Mmmm mmm good Its all good and its all fun. Fun for adults. Smiles. Laughs. Giggles. Happiness. Joy… Ain’t that right Sierra?

Fresh White tshirt in my all-white cabby… Yeah, she a girl but she call me daddy

http://www.shimmyshow.com

Well I made it through the year alive and well, and its been a good one. Really! Despite the fuckedup economy and all I managed to make a come up. This time last year I was up in Canada, broke, cold, and freezing my nuts off. I didn’t even own a video camera or a website other than this silly blog. In less than a year I’ve gotten all my camera gear, POV filmed about 30 girls, attended 7 porn conventions all over the country, launched my first paysite in almost a decade (Ndngirls.com) and am on the fast track to getting my shit back together, with many new sites and concepts in the works that I won’t get discuss. All I can say is these new sites of mine are fucking funny, and fun to create. I like what I do. Whereas before, 10yrs ago in the biz I didn’t. I didn’t really like porn actually, it was just a ways to a means. Now I like making porn my way, and its fun and lucrative. Its an enjoyable hobby, and even though it requires long hours of post production to piece everything together it is fun to conceptualize shit in your head and then get living breathing humans to follow through with it.

I could be working a square job still, like I’ve had so many this year just so I could hustle up cash for my video equipment and money to pay the girls and all, but that sucks. I don’t want a soul crushing, life draining occupation that makes my feet, back, and brain hurt at the end of every day. Whether you know it or not, a year ago I was delivering newspapers in Canada. I was an illegal USA immigrant up there, trying to do the ‘right thing’ and live near my kids and all and that was the only “under the table” hustle job I could get. I would strap on 2 80lb sacks filled with papers, and have to trudge uphill icy driveways in -40 degree weather in snowstorms and shit just to get by. I think I made 10 cents for every paper I delivered, and it had to be in their mailbox by 8am or I would catch hell. That job fucking sucked, and I nearly lost 2 of my fingers to frostbite its a miracle I can still type. Everyone has setbacks and hardships, not trying to say I’m all special and shit, and if you’ve got a blog with a similar story I’d love to hear/read it for reals.

So anyway after getting my shit back together, I returned up north to get my money from them niggas in the snow. I film about half of my girls up there, often in the same neighborhoods I delivered papers to in the morning. It brings a smile to my face to get some get-back, and make some cash at the same time. So in wrapping things up for this year, most of my goals have in fact been accomplished. Check out this earlier post from February 2009 to see what I mean and when you’re done, you can listen to my whole yearend wrapup podcast at shimmyshow.com

See yall in Vegas for AVN and Internext in a few days, happy new years and kwanzaa

Shimmy

I make a lot of personal sacrificies to be a pornographer that many of you guys who aren’t in the industry don’t even realize. I don’t sleep much at all, work 80-100hrs per week, have to deal with all sorts of flakes, fakes, and deadend runarounds. Deals go bad, people wanna lowball, trashtalk, and steal your work when you put it up for sale, billing companies run off with all your hard earned money like a thief in the night, and to top it all off you are looked down upon by everyone in your family and community that somehow has a misconception about what exactly it is you do for a living. You can’t date any “normal” chicks, they will usually flee when you tell them the truth about how you make a living. Unless they’re hippie chicks, liberals, or lesbians, which can sometimes totally rock.

My mom actually called me the other day and asked was I busy having sex. Imagine that. And some hating ass niggas in my family keep running their mouths about all my “hoochie mamas” and “rump shakers on the boat” in miami… they somehow discovered fubarwebmasters.com and see me at all these porn conventions and gatherings across the country, then they started googling all the models I film and shit and start talking about them… at the fucking family dinner table with 3 generations of my folks seated partaking in a rare family meal. Classy negroes I tell you. Then they’ll whine and hit me up for some bread later on. And treat me like a stranger in my own house, that I gave them for fucking free. Cause I’m a pervert right, with no morals. And all my money is ill gotten and immoral. Nigga please.

So with all that said I’m a hustler in every sense of the word and I make no apologies. It is a very lonely life that I live but the tradeoff is well worth it when everyday I realize that I’m in control of everything, I ultimately have no one to answer to but my paying customers and affiliates, and I runs shit the way I wanna run it. Most of the time its a pain in the ass, but when you pay the cost to be the boss its really worth it when you have GOOD DAYS days like today. Sometimes the talent shows up, clean, sober, makeup ready, looking smokin hot, knows the paperwork and 2257 ID drill, and puts on an amazing performance where you actually start to believe every dirty sexy word that comes out of her mouth… thats what the fuck I’m talking about. And  Sierra Sanchez, you really made my day a good one… and reminded my why I do what I do for a living. Matter of fact you’re getting booked again this week so go buy a new outfit and some jewelry. peaceout.

Man I feel accomplished today. I actually carried out about 90% of the things on my to do list which I am back in the habit of making everyday. Funny how shit gets done when you write it down. After some tumultuous times traveling last week to canada and back I decided to splurge and do some impulse shopping once I got back on US soil. I went ahead and ordered a 32″ LCD to use as my computer monitor because I have a LOT of video editing to do here. I filmed 3 new indian girls up in canada and they delivered some smokin hot scenes, and I’ve done quite a bit of local filming right here in florida. Believe it or not as I type this at the office, this little puertorican chica who sold me this GPS for my car on craigslist knocks on my door and says she wants to do a video with me. I told her first thing friday since my ass is kinda broke right now from all the shopping and traveling I’ve done. By the way that is big boobed 18 year old Hailey Cummings in the photo there. I shot her first scene so maybe she will go places and it will be a classic shimmy production. We shall soon find out. The glasses were my idea to kink her up a bit…

So yeah yesterday I filmed Hailey and her boyfriend getting it on and it was actually the first time I paid money out of my own pocket to film other people fucking in 3rd person. White folks at that, see I’m not racist The video came out well but the only issue is that its a bit vanilla, and it will probably pay for itself  (lets fucking hope so) on clips4sale or hotmovies. Maybe… but as we all know white on white just is not a hot seller lately. Usually i’m the talent in all my movies but like anything you have to experiment with different styles of shooting every now and then. My only regret is dude took over an hour to blow his load on his little busty teen hottie, but it was ok as I wasn’t late for my evening driver job. Overall it was alright and not too bad. You can certainly get camera angles POV doesn’t allow for when you know how to frame up your shots well.

There are so many details I’m leaving out about my life as an adult webmaster/pornographer, and its probably not too concerning to the average citizen. I basically work a job just like you guys and gals do, and deal with the same people, doing the same shit basically. Its probably not even worth mentioning the minute details. But for those of you who want the true inside scoop, make sure you check out the shimmy show for audioblog episodes of my crazy life. I really need to start putting advertisements etc on these pages because a lot of you niggas are hitting my blogs and radio show up lately and I’m sure you wanna see some tits and ass and not just read and listen to me drone on about shit. I’d rather talk than type anyday.

At least I got my oil changed today, washed the ride, dropped off my iphone to get fixed, and got a big ass jumbo sized computer monitor ordered up. My new shelltoe adidas came in the mail today too. Its nice to be able to finally buy some shit after living po’ for so long. And its nice to have your phone ringing and your door knocking with girls who wanna fuck on video too. Man this shit is getting easier and easier by the day I can’t wait to see how much progress I’ve made by the end of this year. I’m going to also submit Hailey and Sean to this couples website that pays for sex tapes, the same one I tried to get foxy roxy to do with me last month and we’ll see how it goes. I think I can sell them if I pitch their audition video right…

peaceout

Shimmy

A lot of folks listen to me talking shit on the shimmy show and think I don’t care about the girls I work with both on and off camera, and that couldn’t be further from the truth. I’m not a hardcore gangsta nigga gorilla pimp I do actually give a shit, and in the case of what happened over the last few days I cared a bit too much about the 18 year old white girls “problems” and got fucked over myself by going soft. I exhibited a sign of weakness, broke the rules of the game, and pretty much fucked myself out of a few hundred dollars. Should recoop it today, we will see if the girl remains true to her word, should be an interesting night. See that little text message I got on my phone there… my main chick the 18yr old white girl has self inflicted money problems. She has rent that is $1000 a month, her roomate skipped out on her without paying, and she got an eviction notice (or at least the customary warning papers) on her door the other day. So that alone was motivation for her to get some real money hustling for me. I said I would double up and even triple post her ads to keep her phone ringing and help her out. Well to make a long story short she made $800 last night from 2 calls. We have this agreement where 2 calls or less we split 50/50 and 3 calls or more I get 50 per delivery along with a little kickback for ad posting and gas money. It works out about the same so long as she keeps moving, and isn’t lazy.

By the way, thank you Jayda for helping me forget about these problems…. so anyhow instead of my $400 cut last night, she tried to renig on our written agreement and give me like $160 for the whole night, pocketing about $700 for herself. I set her straight and she went into this bit about my rent this, my life that, blah blah blah and I told her I don’t want to see her ass evicted so just pay the fucking rent and don’t expect me to bend the fuck over for you like this because these were some high risk calls in lakeland that I had taken babygirl on, and some unneccesary risks if you ask me and I don’t like doing anything remotely that hot. So I really really fucked myself out of my money for this little 18 year old bitch, who just spent $340 on a freakin cell phone 2 days ago (gee where did that rent money go…) and I made it clear to her this would not happen again.

I’m not the type of nigga to rub shit like this in peoples faces or hold stuff over their heads cause it just makes for awkward moments. So long as she knows it’s back to business as usual we’re good. Surprisingly after she made rent, she tells me she could not work yesterday cause she is sick, stomach hurts (hangover likely) and I said no problem but today (sunday) you’re going out EARLY and getting me some motherfuckin money. And that she will do. Cause I’m leaving on Monday… up to Canada for a week to see my kids and get them some winter clothes, shoes and shit before it turns cold up there. I’m also gonna film some enough indian girls to get hotnativeamericangirls.com launched. I spent the afternoon yesterday booking a plane ticket, researching hotel/rental cars, making sure my bills here are all straight for my office space, gym membership (thanks, girl with glasses) and other shit so that when I get back in the country everything is on the up and up. I ended yesterday by having Jayda over for an office POV video, same type of scenes as last week only with better lighting, and broke in that natuzzi leather sofa finally. Keep up to date on my travels on the shimmy show audioblog, as this might be my last post here on shimmysbookmarks for about a week or so, as I’ll be busy filming, with my kids, with friend, girls, etc for the next week and I don’t have a laptop. Maybe if I can update this site through my iphone… we’ll soon see.

peaceout

shimmy

Ohhhhkayyy! This is the first time in about a month since I’ve connected my main computer to the internet. I’ve finally relocated to my new office space, and it feels good to have some privacy and respect goddammit. I’ve been hopping back and forth and public libraries and hotels, and you can’t really work on your porn shit there. Either the filters block it, or its simple not appropriate to do in public with prying eyes everywhere. I think damn near everyone wants to secretly spy on what a black dude is using a public computer for. Anyhow, I haven’t forget about my passion for writing, speaking, and entertaining, and over the course of the last 2 months, and made an audioblog/radioshow for your listening pleasure. I won’t spoil the details, but you can check it out at http://www.shimmyshow.com

Less than a week before I leave California and I’m just tying up some loose ends out here. Doing my best to see people before I head up outta here because I likely won’t be back for a good while, and not without a round trip ticket. No naked photos or videos to post this time as per usual, I just don’t feel like it at the moment. Cybernet expo was nice to attend and the pics are up at fubarwebmasters.com if you care to see them. I won’t ramble on and on about the seminars, naked parties, and shows, because at the end of the day its just another freakin porn convention, about my 6th one this year. Its kind of growing old. Anyway, I’m basically there to touch bases with my industry contacts and holler at people with like minds. You can’t always disclose to civilians the inner workings of the sex industry as you will freak them out with your casual conversation. So yeah I guess its good to be around like minds. Oh and special thanks to Roxxy… if you’re reading this, I think you’re pretty fucking cool. Love the glasses, hit me up sometime.

So with just a few days left before I giddyup outta here I would like to express my thanks to everyone who helped me out here in Cali for the past 6 months… my family, Terry, Ed, Princess Donna, and India from kink.com, Martin and Tina from sfasians.com, Vicki at Ecos, California Talent, Jose Cuervo promos, AIM, Cryobank, and all my gym buddies at Ballys. You guys helped me get back on my feet after arriving here from Canada with nothing but the clothes on my back. I appreciate the help, the work you gave me, and the experiences.

Now on the other hand, I would like to burn some bridges with all the sorry ass muthafuckas that made california such a miserable, gut wrenching experience… all the bullshit scam ass jobs that don’t pay up, liars, theives, and schiesty shady motherfuckers in general who are lower than whale shit… fuck yall niggas… there are too may to name, so I will hand pick the ones who stick out in my mind….

• Forests Forever (charity “non-profit” treehugger scam artist telemarketing call center, San Francisco. Middle-eastern Taliban insurgent motherfuckers wearing burkas run the operation and are racist as johnny rebel. Fired for not meeting sales goal quota one day… apparently i do not ’scam fast enough’ for their liking)
• Ecovote.org, or California League of Conservation Voters also known as CLCV. A pathethic pandering organization that sends you door to door canvassing in rich-ass honkey neighborhoods. I should have known better when their craigslist ad and website said “minorities encouraged to apply”. That tall lanky whiteboy  who drove us around in the busted ass Honda Civic with expired out of state tags (hint hint) did not pay me either. I walked the streets of Berkeley with you and went to over a hundred fucking houses and helped you panhandle a fucking grip full of cash money (which i’m so sure you diligently reported to the head office) and I did not get a dime. Then I came in to work the next day and you said I was not “ready” yet you had that downs syndrome bitch and all those fresh off the boat sleepyheads working the streets for you. Bitch-ass nigga. Fuck you, your organization, and fuck politics in general.
• East Bay Paratransit (drive buses for the elderly/handicapped etc… fucking coon-ass niggers run the adminstration here. I passed the tests. Completed training. Already have a CDL Class-A as and I’m an experienced big rig truck driver. I’m friendly to everyone. Black bitch did not hire me for my “attitude problem”. Classic example of what minorities do to one another when given authority.
• BSIS basically what it sounds like. Bureau of Security and Investigation Services actually (california guard card training and certification. I paid big bucks for the course, I passed, got offered a job at Apple computer in cupertino… but wait, where is my fucking guard card so i can work… 6 months later stil haven’t received it. Fucking losers messing with my paper.
• CA DMV yeah everyone thinks they suck, me included. ( I retested for my CDL, passed, passed the physical, paid up… took $300 and 3 months to get a Licensce here)
• GR. Yes you. Short, cute, bossy filly girl. And I know you will read this one day even though you say you hate porn. I can’t kick it with you anymore after what has transpired out here. Yes I feel very used after all these years. I’m sorry your husband, or ex-husband, or whatever the fuck he was to you killed himself (by hanging himself no less), but that nigga was crazy and you know it. After I took your daughter to the movies and was napping on your couch, this crazy wild ass filipino is in the kitchen sharpening knives and talking that crazy shit. He had issues, all fucked up on meth and shit… and you’re a goddam corporate banker. I used to listen to your stories about him stealing your money out your purse and gambling it away, I came over and hugged you and let you vent to me about how much of an asshole this nigga was like I was your big fucking gay black friend and shit. And I’m not doing that shit anymore. I don’t need any more platonic female friends unless its about getting some motherfucking money. I’m not going to humilate myself by sleeping on another females couch while she sleeps in a bedroom alone with the door closed like I’m going to come and fucking eat her like the boogey man at 2 in the morning. You’re too rigid, too bossy, and too controlling to be considered a friend of mine, and friends do not use friends. Thats just fucked up. I’m not videotaping any more funerals or saying any more eulogies for evil motherfuckers that did dirt in their lives. I can’t do it anymore so don’t even ask. I will not come to any crazy womans house at midnight to change the locks on your door so that your crazy wild ass nigga can’t bust in when he’s all fucked up on drugs. And GR I don’t wanna hear any more of that guilt trip shit about what if I wouldn’t have changed the locks maybe he wouldn’t have killed himself. It was better him than you. And for the record I really don’t get how you mourned him so much yet everytime I saw you guys interact you were always on his back, harping on him about being a lazy no good motherfucker get a job you sonofabitch get outta my house etc. Who are you trying to fool. I really hope you get over him, and actually grow up a bit. Quit stressing so much and live life, you act as if you’re going to have a fucking heart attack every time I talk to you. Quit taking life so seriously, and enjoy it, slow down… move the fuck out of california if you have to. But please, do not EVER think you can order, boss, me around, be judgemental to me, use me to do your “man shit” around the house/car or whatever, treat me like I’m some sexless eunich and act offended and tell me you’re catholic and shit and how you don’t fuck etc yet you have no problem fucking gambling drug addict dropouts who don’t do shit for you except steal from you when you’re not looking because they’re your own race and shit, or schedule me like I’m some little menial to do task on your smart phone. Its really tough to break ties with friends you’ve had since college, especially cute ones you share memories and experiences with, but for the time being and perhaps for some years to come I think I need to break this clean. Good luck with everything and hope things turn out well for you. Wish you the best GR.

I gotta quit typing and do some actual work, and mail my shit off to the east coast so its there when I’m ready. On a positive note, I watched City of God (foreign film with subtitles) and really enjoyed the movie last nite, its my 2nd fav. foreign film after Swept Away (1974, Italian flick). K I’m outta here…. time to workout.

shimmy

Its settled… and I just booked a one-way ticket up outta here for good. I am officially done with California in 2 weeks. And I’m not coming back to live here. Ever. EVER. Fuck that… the final straw was when a few days ago I was headed to this little square temp promo job I have out here to give away supplement samples. This company pays me $20 an hour to be this fitness promo guy and I do the gig like once or twice a month since I’ve been in California as it was one of my first craigslists jobs when I landed here. So anyhow on the way to the vitamin store this cop fucks with me and says I ran a yellow light (wtf?) and I’ll get something in the mail about it. Well the mail came, and these fuckers want $495 from me… all en route to a bullshit $20 job trying to make an honest living. Well that was the “fuckit” catalyst for me. And by the way my black ass will be in court fighting that shit next week. So much for being a wage slave, there is no way to get ahead unless you control your own money and your own lifestyle, and I knew this all along… I just needed a recent bump on the head to jog my memory. So Cali is so DONE… like this little 18 year old freak I met in the hot tub at the gym said, its a “fail” living out here. And don’t even get me started on the latest AIM news for those folks down in LA… I didn’t know what a fail was (apparently its new white girl suburban slang) until she broke it down to me. I feel very old all of a sudden…

So anyhow I’ve been scouring craigslist down there and am trying to decide on south beach miami or tampa. I’m so done with orlando. Even though I still have a house in that area its all fucked up from family members running in and out of it for many years and the place is just “tore up from the floor up” as they used to say in oakland.

So I’m just gonna rent me a nice little clean apartment near or on the BEACH where I can get some SUN on my black ass and peacefully work on my websites, videos, and occasionally film a hottie or twelve. Rent is dirt cheap down there compared to Cali… and I’m just a single guy with no bitches shacked up with me so I can live off a bag of rice for a month. Fuck all my cars, they can rot. I’m not pissing any more money into them after I take my kids on a road trip this summer. Then I’m selling them all for whatever the market dictates. If you think I’m bullshittin, I just sold my Mercedes for $137.51 on ebay so I don’t even give a fuck. I bought my plane ticket with the paypal money, now thats a good investment… as soon as I land I’m gonna get me a bicycle and some new adidas and run up and down the beach twice a day, 5 miles in the morning, same in the evening. Gotta get off these treadmills and the “california lifestyle” and get some more fresh air. shit.

So anyhow until my day for departure comes, I’ve got 15 DV tapes of footage to put up on VOD sites, Hotmovies, Clips4sale, and hopefully AEBN and any others I can find. Need to monetize this footage to pay for more models, and film some of the same girls again for other scenes as well. Not to mention its a good rent money hustle until I actually have enough original content shot up for my paysite launches this summer. Which reminds me, I need to jam up to the indian reservation to continue filming babes for hotnativeamericangirls.com which is way behind production schedule. I need to just get up there and rent a place for a week and bang out footage of at least 12 girls (enough to start and sustain a member site for a month at least) until I can make steady and regular travel plans to get up there for updates. So there will be a lot of resettling and zipping around in planes and cars and shit from now until the end of August. I’ll still be attending Cybernet Expo and Internext in addition to securing and furnishing a new place, taking my kids on a cross country roadtrip, filming and banging more girls than I have fingers and toes, setting up my paysites, merchant account with OrbitalPay (thanks Karen) and getting some good affiliates to help me push it all down the buying public websurfers throats. So I shall be busy. Matter of fact this other video clip just got done rendering on the PC next to me so I better tend to it. This blog is gonna make one hell of a movie… or instructional guide for anyone that is starting all over with nothing but a vision. By the way fans if you wanna download Roxy, Carmen, or Kira’s videos before they hit my paysite, be my guest and snag em’ up my clips4sale store for now. peaceout

- shimmy

i gotta go. Really. i need to gtfo asap… get the fuck out as soon as possible. I’ve fuckin had it with california. and i’ve only been back here for like 24 hours. its that bad. you don’t realize how fucked up it is until you compare it with the rest of the modern world. i don’t know where to begin so its time for a bulleted list to empty my mind…

california grass is brown. all of it. that is whenever you can find it. people tend to put rocks and pebbles on that little 8ft patch in front of their house they call a lawn here… and if they do have grass its all brown. eww. and i left the paradise of white sandy beaches, crystal blue salt water, hot sun and buttnekkid florida cuties for this shit out here. the nature alone is enough to make me move back to florida

california girls. don’t even get me started. i will fill this fucking page with cuss words and make up some as i go. these chicks do too much living in their heads and are damn near lifeless. feminine traits no longer exist here, and what you are left with are cocky hateful woMEN with tits who think they know everything and condescent to every motherfucker who dares to smile and say hi. 100% of them have rehashed issues and therefore cannot smile, relax, have fun, or be genuine. you may get a fake smile when you are seen brandishing some currency at the store, and even their fake smile is not very good. if pitted against women around the world they would rank quite low put it that way

california jobs just ain’t happening. you better act in porn, direct porn, shoot porn, or webmaster porn if you’re gonna make it. otherwise head on right down to the social services building in your county. niggas ain’t hiring here for shit. no retail. no blue collar. no IT computer geek work. no white collar. unless you’re a doctor or a undertaker there is no work for yo ass here. you better get to fucking on film to pay your rent or find somebody to sue like everyone else. and hustle fast too
california traffic defies description. just get a bicycle. use it often. i have a few. there is this really interesting stunt track here where 16 lanes of traffic all get a green light at the same time, then they merge into 4 lanes all within a 1/4 mile stretch. all amateur drivers too… its called the Bay Bridge toll plaza. make sure your insurance is paid up and keep your AAA on speed dial if you plan on driving here. oh and those san francisco hills work wonders on clutches… be prepared to sit in traffic for 2 hours to cover just a few miles here

california people tend to look like they have heavy shit on their minds all the time. i think the word is “frazzled”. people in south beach FL just chill and live in the moment. they’re alert, happy, healthy, and actually respond like real humans when you talk to them. here people are dead fucking serious and its downright scary. they look miserable, and tense. when i’m on the subway here there can be a train car full of 35 people and not a single person will say a peep for like an hour. its so damn tense i dont even wanna think about it. it just seems like everyone has alterior motives and their behavior reflects it in their tense body language, straight faces, and ‘do not look at or talk to me’ attitudes. then these niggas will hate on me and look at me like i’m crazy for smiling and being happy around them. fuck yall i ain’t gonna be miserable just cause your life is fucked up beyond repair
california food sucks. i only drink smoothies and eat cereal. everything else will kill you.

so thats it for tonites little rant. my plan is to be permanently moved back to florida by november this year. fueling this dream of mine will be my websites, dvds, and other porno related shit. you have to come to florida with a little bit of money or you will be stuck. i’m only out here to hustle up some cash then i’m up out this bitch for good while i’m still sane and happy. no wonder i left this place 10 years ago… now i remember why…